I am so sorry. My brother's death was the worst thing to ever happen to me. He was 14 years older than I, had a long horrible cancer death, and I still was not prepared.I hope your brother did not suffer and that you come through this. I am very close to his children and love his grandchildren, that he never met, like they are my own. No other words but, hope you are OK and find some type of healing through this terrible time.
Cathy