So very sorry you lost your husband and good friend and soul mate Mary.
I'm so very sad for you over this. You've been an amazing example and inspiration to me through all of this.
The Lord bless you and keep you,
the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you,
the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace. Numbers 6:24-26
Oh Mary, my heart is broken reading this. I so was hoping things would improve. Just know that even though we've never met, I feel for what you are going through.
My husband's grandmother was very special to me more so than anyone else of my husband's family at that time. My husband and I were the last to get to the hospital. She had been unresponsive with everyone else. When I bent over to hug her she opened her eyes and lifted her arms. Somehow I think she was just waiting for us to get there to let go.